Saturday, November 03, 2001

I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag. I'm madly in love with my pink bag.

I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop. I need a palm top. I need a laptop.

Geez. Went bonkers for a moment.

Friday, November 02, 2001

And did I mention that I'm at disc 4 of Fighter Girl? Woohoo.
We are all lucky kids. Born with a silver spoon sticking in our damn little mouths for most cases. I'm so ashamed of myself whenever I take a deeper thought about my maids. Like I'm not fit to be compared to them. Left home at the real age of 18 to work at a foreign country, she's very efficient and hardworking. The other maid who is living with me has a family and a child in her hometown. It is very disheartening for me to see her sobbing alone at a corner whenever she misses her family. I believe that the hard-earned monthly salary of theirs is not even enough for us, (teenagers-young adults), to pay for our hp bills, internet bills, allowances, or expenditure. Sometimes we took money too lightly. Perhaps that's the reason why our parents often tell us their long ago stories about their age when they started working. I dislike regarding maids as a standard lower than us. I always prefer calling them 'kakak' (malay word for 'elder sis'). Afterall they worth our respect.

I was playing my gameboy just now. I guess I'm getting an rpg game cartridge for my gb to make sure that I'll take a bus journey be it to work or school instead of Mr Uncle Lee driving and my money jumping away like a counter. My sis hyori- once mentioned that my family is a console-freak when he came over to visit my house before I move over to my new house. It somehow left me a deep impression kinda comment. I still remember during the gameboy pokemon craze, I so obsessed with the game that the music couldn't stop ringing in my mind even when I'm not playing. I did wonder if there is any japanese ancient spell behind the game. Haha.

I love taking bus rides alone. But I'm always lazy to wake up early. I must learn to hate taking cabs. Hope my new approach with gameboy works.
Jaa ne.

Thursday, November 01, 2001

It is raining again! I feel like snuggling on my bed. The rain is quite heavy. It feels good.

Received a call early in the morning at 7a.m. My heart aches. Was too sleepy so I went to bed after the conversation. My palm still hurts. I dreamt that I had a fall on to the sandy ground while climbing a narrow stairway. The sand got into my palm. I woke up. It is painful and it still hurts now. Bizzare.

Okay, it is time to remote, read the papers, have my lunch, and off to work.
Jaa ne.
Geez. My sis has completed my S$14.90 Fighter Girl! She is fast.
My entry went missing after I posted it.

Just woke up. Feeling much better. Sleeping does heal. I slept my whole afternoon away thus didn't manage to watch Fighter Girl. Drats, now my sis is at disc 6. I guess I won't have any chance to watch peacefully after today. My work will start trmw. I'll also have to rush the website for work.

I couldn't smile. Something has taken away my smile for the whole day. Yet I'm being cheered up by someone close. She's so lucky. She's not a star. She's me.

Jaa ne.

Wednesday, October 31, 2001

Glad that I'm back after a morning of rush. The feeling of home is the best. Well, or is it my PC?

I saw a red Mercs today. So red. So bold. So unstylish. As much as red is an auspicious colour, and Mercs may stands for some status, or perhaps like we can say opposite poles attract? Or a cross breed of the heaven and earth? It look more like a vulgar loanshark vehicle to me.

Wore my windbreakers again. I thought its going to rain, just like yesterday. Yet the skies disappoint me. I refused to take off my windbreaker when the sun merges from the clouds. My heart is sick.

As the saying goes "the forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest." I guess its really true subconsciously in everyone's mind.Why? Don't ask me. I won't tell ya. It is a secret.

So exams are over. What's next?

I guess that I'll complete the 8 discs of Fighting Girl today before my work starts trmw.
I don't really sound cheery today. I didn't try my best for my papers.

Perhaps I'll add another entry later. As for now, I'll shut my mouth.
Jaa ne.
Oh my god. My sis is at Disc 4 now. 4 more discs and she'll complete the whole serial. How sad that I couldn't watch.
Its a wonderful day. I love rainy days like this. Cool temperatures, I could wear my windbreaker comfortably. I'm going to buy something red to wear. I started to like pink and red unknowingly. Perhaps its a sign that I'm becoming more like a girl. But I thought it was more like other reasons. Red is passion. Woo. I just think that I belong to the red type. Passionate, boisterous, and combustion of energy. And when I'm tired, mode changes to pink. Then white. A cycle of red to white. Boy, I think it sounds like menstruation.

Hey, speaking of pink, my new bedroom is furnished with pink furniture. Not that I want. Parents just have the mindset of 'pink for girls and blue for guys', no matter how I protest that I wanted blue instead. Oh well and now I'm stuck with pink. Cursed.

I went shopping alone after my C-maths paper. I've got to get my printer a new black ink cartridge. I end up spending 15 bucks more on a Japanese drama serial VCD-Fighting Girl, with Kyoko Fudaka as the leading actress. I allowed my sis to watch it first. I've only caught a few glimpses. Didn't dare to watch for I know I'll be obsessed with it until I've completed the whole series. I'm quite easily obsessed with activities I do. It is like, once I start, I couldn't stop. When I stop, I wouldn't touch it for quite a time, until the kick comes back. I couldn't tolerate if my life is fixed with monotonous activities. Afterall, I'm the red-to-white type.

Back to my shopping alone. I reckon I must be carried away.
I enjoy shopping alone. Just love to be an aloner at times. Humming my way while I shop, observing the surroundings around me, practically in a world of my own which I don't have to care about anything like if a friend is tagging along, I'll tend to put my focus my attention on my friend fearing that he/she may get bored. Many secondary students were hanging out at the shopping centre as usual. Just something a little different today, report books flinging around.

Report book. Something which I fear to receive during my secondary school days. I miss my secondary school life. Carefree stuff. Uniforms provoke creativity. A surge to change. Girls' school really has a thing or two. Girl Power and Unity. Behind all that, Jealousy, Backstabbing, Vicious Gossip-mongers. Life is horribly hideous (at times) when we turn to the back side of the page. I used to wish I could be 17 when I was a bud teenager. I guess everyone does that. Now that I'm already 17 for almost 2 months, it isn't anything oh-so-great. Age doesn't matter.

Gosh. I guess I gotta run now. Exam fever is still on. I'm caged like a little tweety bird. Tuddy cat is the examination.
Jaa ne.




Monday, October 29, 2001

It has been almost a month since I bought my domain. Yet I have not paid for it.
Damn. The 3% monthly interest is gonna kill me. Ha. Ha.

The exam fever is still on. Till Thursday.. Anyway freelancing work is piling up. The breeze smell of money gets me going.
Oh well. Like it really does any.
I don't wanna end up working for money.
A dosage of creativity and interest everyday, keeps dullness away.